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CHAPTER ONE HEDGED
Enjoy CHAPTER ONE from the new bestseller Wall Street Novel: HEDGED !!!
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This is written for every trader out there who has ever lost money in the market.
I’ve been there.
I wanted to stop. I didn’t want to do it. But I was lying in bed… and I couldn’t help myself. The craving arrives, it overwhelms me…
It comes without warning… and I’m in it again.
Oh, God, it feels so good. This position.
This is it… this is it.
Don’t stop… don’t stop. That’s it, keep going…
I’m elated. I’m in ecstasy. I need more. Much more. I’m in over my head again. I’m in way too deep… but I can’t stop myself.
I won’t.
I don’t need to, my other side argues.
You’ve got this.
You 100% got this.
I stare straight ahead. My eyes hold a dangerous gleam. My senses are all heightened; everything takes on a visceral sense. I am in another state, another world, another mind. My heart races and its good today. So good.
My cat, Sam, enters my bedroom. He jumps on my desk and sits beside me, erect and kingly.
I grab my mouse... Read more....
CHAPTER ONE
The Valentine's Day Concert
It was almost over. The quarantine. The hardest part of almost anybody’s life.
At first, I welcomed it. I loved being alone and not having have to work. I could feed off of the unemployment drip, trade everyday, write and go to the beach.
I’d relax, pray, meditate, and be isolated.
Perfect.
It was a no-brainer.
Until it wasn’t.
I’m not sure when it occurred; maybe it was when I learned that the product I traded for the past three years was being delisted, and hundreds of thousands of dollars were wiped out of my account overnight. Or maybe it was just the boredom that took hold, of doing the same things, day in and day out.
I had an old Mercedes and the battery died soon after the quarantine began and there was no point in getting it jumped because there was no place to go. It would only die again.
So I walked everywhere; to the grocery store, around my neighborhood, to the beaches. But the energy in the air was bad.
Really bad.
People were yelling at one another; for not wearing masks, for not social distancing… people were running traffic lights with no regard for the law. And then there were the protests which happened right outside of my apartment in Santa Monica, California.
Months passed and they kept extending the quarantine.
But the stock market continued to rally and hit all time highs. I was short; I had a massive position on again, and I was losing everything.... Read More...
CHAPTER ONE MEG & I
“I looked at all the caged animals in the shelter…
The cast-offs of human society.
I saw in their eyes love and hope, fear and dread, sadness and betrayal.
And I was angry. “God,” I said, “this is terrible!
Why don’t you do something?”
God was silent for a moment
And then He spoke softly.
“I have done something,” He replied.
“I created You.”
 -Jim Willis
​PREFACE
I never realized the depth of my loneliness.
Until I got a dog.
I never understood how someone could love something so much, that they would go to the end of the earth to see its happiness.
Love, to me, was how it was in the movies. That long lost kiss…
The kiss in Footloose when Ren gets the nerve to kiss Ariel. Or that illicit kiss when Father Ralph de Bricassart succumbs to Meggie in the forbidden romance, The Thorn Birds. Or in WITNESS, when John Book and Rachel run to each other in the field and kiss. One kiss.
A kiss to last a lifetime.
Love to me was always feeling; a state of being…
I never realized it wasn’t anything of the sort.
Real love was life in the hard places: getting up at 2 am when your dog needs to go to the bathroom. Trying to pick up his runs when he has diarrhea with a plastic bag, picking up her large loads; three, sometimes four, five times a day. Running into the woods after her when her favorite blue ball gets stuck in a thorn bush.
Her eyes looking up at me like, C’mon, Mom, you can do it. You’re only going to get pricked a thousand times!
Love is realizing that when she gets scared, like when she hears thunder or a loud noise that sounds like gunshots and she goes cowering into her cage, that it’s okay. That I actually love getting on my hands and knees and petting her; comforting her during these times, telling her in a soft voice that it’s going to be okay.
Never having been married, I always lived life for myself. I was a gypsy; flying around from destination to destination, going on yachts, overseas, traveling the world, man after man, party after party, living for the moment.
Never tie down, never lock down…
Never. Be.
Trapped.
I had three goals: no husband, no employer, no landlord.
And after I achieved two out of three, I got her: Meg.
She came into my life during a very hard period. I was too young to retire but I felt old… having lived a full life; a life only for myself. But now there was her, my big, beautiful German Shepherd beast.
She was fierce, loving, smart, strong, brave. And I never realized she would change my life in ways unimaginable.
Here is our journey. From start to finish.
And if you’re reading this, and you have the time or the money to rescue an animal, please do it.
This book is written for you.
You will learn so much about yourself and about life; and through their eyes, see it so much differently.
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